My Weight Loss World

I think I might head to the gym. The weather has cooled down a bit in Sydney, and I don’t feel like I’m going to die if I break a sweat that isn’t caused from sitting still on my couch.

Damn this summer is one hot mother!

Since I’m just starting back at the gym for the year I might take it easy and do an inclined walk and some strength training. Ease back into it.

Hope the gym isn’t too packed.

It was my birthday last Saturday (Jan 5th) and I went out for dinner and a catch up with family and friends. I had a decent enough time…until I saw this pic of myself :-/

I look SO HEAVY and CHUNKY.

The pics that have been taken of me lately are usually just of my face, not my body. So I guess I haven’t really noticed any weight gain.

Well yeah, there it is. In all it’s fatty glory.

Thank god I’m back on the road to a healthy lifestyle. This picture just motivates me even more.

I weight myself this morning. 66.5 fucking kilos. 2.3 kilos away from my highest recorded Tumblr weight.

How depressing.

At least I know how much I’ve put on though. I’ve been delaying doing this until after Christmas because I just know the numbers will be bad.

So now that I know, it’s the perfect motivation for me to wake the fuck up and get back on the healthy lifestyle path I know I can live, because I’ve done it before - and loved it.

Motivation is high, even if my self esteem is low. It’s all good.

Soooo, I’ve pretty much been avoiding this blog like the plague because I’ve been a fatty, fatty boom-sticks that has been pretending that summer isn’t in couple of weeks and that I haven’t put on a stack of weight.

*sigh*

I need a reality check. I will no longer ignore how much tighter my clothes feel or ignore how much weight I’ve out on.

From tomorrow I will be back (again) to start on my weight loss journey (again) and I won’t stop (again) until I reach my goals.

Talk to you tomorrow lovers x

Been so, so, so bad lately.

But it’s all good. Back on track tomorrow. Back to the gym and back to eating healthy.

Hit the gym this morning and eating like a champ.

Feels good to be back on the right path again.

I’ve officially discovered that when I don’t go to the gym, I don’t eat right. The two go hand-in-hand for me. I can’t do one without the other. So I need to make sure I get to the gym or else my eating goes out the window.

Hope you guys are having a great day/night…where ever you may be :)

*sigh* It’s true.

Sorry. I’ve just been a bit lazy lately. I haven’t really been making an effort to eat healthy or exercise. I’ve just been so busy with work and family stuff lately, so I’ve been eating on the run and haven’t been to the gym at all for the past 2 weeks. We did go on that long ass bush walk last week, and I have been walking a lot, so I’m not completely inactive. I’m more concerned with my eating than not making it to the gym though, so I need to turn that around ASAP.

Today is Sunday, and what better day to start getting back on track than a Sunday!

So let’s call today ‘green food day’. The goal? To eat (or drink) as many vegetables as possible!

I had a case of stress-induced junk food binge eating yesterday. I was really stressed and naturally, I turned to food. I tried so hard to talk myself out of buying crap foods to eat but yeah, I caved.

Not to worry. Today is a beautiful new day. The damage is done and that was yesterday. Today is full of new opportunities to be better and stronger.

Hope you all have a good day x

I know I’ve kind of been absent off of here lately. And my ‘Road to the ball’ journey just kind of faded away with my lack of interest in posting.

But the ball was on Friday night and I had such a great time. Here’s a pic of me from the night.

I saw a few old friends and one of them kept talking about how much weight I’ve lost.

Yet the thing is, I’ve put on a substantial amount of weight since I got down into the 55kg range. But to my friend that I haven’t seen for literally years, I would have look liked I’d lost a lot of weight. But you know what I said when he said that I’ve lost weight? I said “yeah I did, then I put it back on again and I need to lose it again”. I couldn’t just say thank you! Why couldn’t I just say thank you?? I really need to work on my opinion of my self image.

Hearing someone comment on my weight loss really made me feel happy though. I’d forgotten what that was like. So I’m going to get out of my slump, and start living my healthy lifestyle again. I’m not going to be so strict on myself. I’m going to try a different approach. One that won’t allow me to be derailed so easily.

So tomorrow morning I’ll be back at the gym and back to eating healthy foods. Wish me luck haha.

Looking around at the girlies in the gym this morning I realised that theyre all slimming down and toning up, and I’m sabotaging myself daily with my food choices.

I see this ladies every week at the gym and I can physically see their progress. I feel like I’m just chugging along, burning enough calories off to maintain my weight and not lose any.

Time to start over again but do it properly this time. I’m over talking myself into eating shitty foods that make me feel like crap just because I can’t be bothered cooking. Over it.

Shit just got serious.

I haven’t been to the gym since Wednesday. It’s now Sunday.

My son was sick on Thursday morning, and I was exhausted on Friday morning, so I didn’t make it to the gym on those days.

Usually when I slack off at the gym, so does my eating. Plus, I’m getting my period. So everything since last Wednesday has been a piece of shit.

At least tomorrow is Monday and I can get back into the swing-o-things. Looking forward to it!!!!!!

Today is Sunday, and I’m perfectly fine and on track. I haven’t slipped up once this weekend. They’re usually the hardest for me to manage and this weekend I never even had the slightest urge to eat something crap. And that includes my boyfriend buying KFC for lunch yesterday. Zero temptation at all on my part. I had my Biggest Loser chicken and vegetable soup and I was perfectly content.

I love that I’m getting back on track and in control of my eating again.

#justsaying

…slept through my alarm and missed this gym this morning lol. I blame The Sims 3. Damn video games.

No biggie though. I still plan on killing it in the foodie department. No slip ups for me.

Have a great day everyone xx